Back phat and neck phat. This is exactly what I am dealing with right now. I feel that my neck phat is actually choking me and one day when I am laying down I will be found, laying there, choked my by own bad choices while pigeons at my window sill gawk or caw. I guess crows caw but Pigeons make another noise, actually, it is more soothing than a caw so at least I will be at peace. I digress.
This is when I just knew something had to be done, and serious changes needed to be made. Also, when I look at my hair in the mirror - I turn around like many of you to make sure my hair is just perfect position from the back and when only wearing a Fabulous bra, I notice some extra puffiness beneath the strap. Puffiness is a very delicate way of saying PHAT. I don't like the way it looks. At one point, I loved my back, my ass, my boobs, my entire body - 30 lbs ago. I was still bigger girl, but I seriously couldn't stop looking at myself, I was gorgeous! Right now, I am not that adventurous and don't feel that pretty....perhaps I wasted it all on that Phony character.
This is another thing, I LOVE posing for a camera - if you know me, or follow my Facebook you already know this. I tend to take pictures of myself and post them for everyone to see. This has not happened in a while. I actually love looking at myself. So, what I have decided is that I will have my photos done, once I reach my first goal of Fiona minus 50lbs. Professionally, perhaps like a Kate Winslet Vanity Fair pose - naked over fur with some heels on a chaise. I think that would be perfect and fabulous to hang in my apartment for anyone who visits to see! A huge fabulous 11 x 17 or much larger actually - just over my couch or on the huge wall when you first walk into my place. Hell, I will even post it on Facebook if people are willing to look at it - take a look for yourself - how Fabulous is this picture? Women pull off the Demi Moore Vanity Fair bare baby belly shots all the time - I'm not expecting a baby, but I am expecting nothing short of looking fabulous - so why not celebrate that? Those pigeons will be whistling like construction workers and gawking, not watching me slowly gasping for air due to neck phat.
Execrcise for today: taking the day off, 13km last night, 13km tomorrow night.
Blog Soon,
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