The Big Phat Weight Reveal - Week 6

Week 6 Numbers Game:
Weight: 205 lbs
Lbs Lost this week: 3

Lbs Lost thus far: 14
Lbs still needed to lose: 36
Desserts consumed: 2
Starbucks Cookies: 0
Peanut Butter by the spoon: 3

KM walked: 20.8 KM - yes, I totally slacked off this week - but I will go tonight in the rain!!
Glasses of Shiraz: 4
Poutine: 0

Emotional Breakdowns: 1 - Frustration post says it all

Guest walkers: 1

I am not going to lie. I am starting to feel better about all of this, especially with 2 weeks straight of loss. Yesterday I put on a pair of jeans that I wasn't able to put on for the longest time, two years long - so that felt great. Also, when I look in the mirror, I am starting to see results in my lower back - so those pigeons will not be able to caww or purr or gawk at my back phat when I am choked by my own neck phat anymore! I know this will take time, but I am on the right path and I am proud that I am sticking to it so far. You never know, I may fall off the wagon, but I don't plan to. Not that anyone ever intends to, you just fall back into bad habits I think - or at least I do anyway hence why yet again, I am trying to lose the excess poundage.

Regarding "Frustration" earlier this week, although certain people say really stupid things sometimes, I have no control over that. What I do have control over is how I react and I need to start not turning those comments inward and take things so personally. He was an idiot man who said something stupid, probably not intending to hurt my feelings but just not thinking of the effects it may or may not have. Regardless, I thank all of you who sent your support regarding treating myself to popcorn. It would be ridiculous to imagine not ever having popcorn again, or having treats - I love food way too much - but everything now needs to be in moderation.

Yesterday, I went to Milestones for Brunch and had eggs benedict with a salad, dressing on the side. Sure, the hollandaise is what kills you - but I decided it had been 6 weeks since I had it and again, wanted to treat myself. I could have had scrambled egg whites, but I figured why not...I can't make Eggs Benedict so may as well order it. I also had a fabulous mimosa. I am not going to feel bad about it, because I know that I am doing well, I am working hard and in time I will get to where I want to be. There will be bumps in the road, mountains to climb and many more tears shed, but in the end, I will succeed. Regardless of what anyone else thinks, I am the only one who can do this - who is doing this for me and I am the one that cares enough to make it happen for myself.

Many of you have shown kind support, encouraging words and I value that more than you could imagine. Thank you as always and believe me, it helps me every day.

Blog Soon,

PFF