Hello there, and welcome to my first official blog post. Actually, this is my first official blog, so I am quite excited about the opportunity to share my thoughts, feelings and experiences that could potentially reach an unlimited audience.
I am a 33 year old single white female who lives in Toronto, Ontario, Canada. I am unhappy with how I look and feel and want to make a permanent change so I can live my life freely, without my weight being something I hide behind.
I have decided to create "Phat to Fit to Fabulous" because I am Phat, I have a desire to be Fit and of course to be Fabulous. I already am pretty Fabulous, but know that I will be even more so when I reach my goal! I feel that I have tried many methods, many times, to permanently lose this weight, but documenting the journey for anyone to see I believe will motivate me to where I need to be. It isn't about only disappointing myself now, but an audience as well.
The word "Phat" seems to be prettier than the other version, the version that has a very negative connotation attached. A word strangers use when they see me, when they are frustrated at me, what I "just know" that they are thinking when walking by or when they see me eating - but in all honestly it is how I view myself and I am tired of it. I am tired of waking up every morning thinking of how my body feels laying in bed. When I get up and walk past the mirror. When I get in the shower, when I get out of the shower. The way my clothes fit. When I am in my car, the drive to work, the walk to my office, sitting at my desk, the walk to my car, sitting in my car, on the drive home. I believe right now I am the heaviest I have ever been. I will wait until Monday to document my weight on here, as I am giving myself a few more days to say goodbye to the unhealthy decisions and habits and of course get the courage to face that number.
The word "Fit" well, is what I want to be. I want to be able to run 5.7 KM without stopping, perhaps 6KM or 7KM per day. One day, I want to be able to run up Mount Pleasant north of Bloor on that huge hill without stopping. Perhaps make that my Saturday run. I don't want to feel that my heart is pounding out of my chest when I climb some stairs. I want to look down the road, six months from now, 12 months from now and feel healthy, happy about my body and satisfied and proud of what I have accomplished. Losing the "Phat" and getting to "Fit" is a long road, but one I am willing to walk, jog and eventually run on and keep going.
The word "Fabulous" is just as is sounds. It is a word I use quite regularly and how I usually feel about myself. Yes, I am a Fabulous woman - a woman of great strength, passion and all around great person. I would do anything for those I care about, anything. I need to care about myself just as much and to live a long and healthy life is something that I yearn for. I am quite capable of it and my goal is to remain Fabulous, and feel incredibly Fabulous after I adopt this healthy lifestyle and shed those pesky 50 pounds that I have been hiding behind for as long as I can remember.
I have lost, I have gained. I have gained more, then I have lost and then I have gained again. I need to stop the cycle. I know that this isn't going to be easy and that I am going to want to give up, daily, weekly, probably even hourly - but I know that I need to do this and I really want the end result, and not the instant gratification of eating what I want to. It is not even a question anymore. This may sound funny, or sad, but I do not want to be one of those people on TLC that eat 35,000 calories a day or need a crane to pull me out of my house....or that guy who sends down a bucket with money to the chicken guy who puts the food in the bucket and pull it up to eat in my room. If I keep the poor eating and non exercise habits, I am afraid that this could be the end result. I am WAY too Fabulous to lift chicken into my room in a bucket.
Thank you for reading, following and I appreciate your support through my journey. Here you will find many different thoughts, feelings, struggles, ideas and opinions that are all mine so feel free to comment, laugh outloud, show support or just listen. Maybe, just maybe you will be able to identify with something I have said and maybe it will make a difference in your own journey.
Take care, and I will blog soon.
PFF
I am a 33 year old single white female who lives in Toronto, Ontario, Canada. I am unhappy with how I look and feel and want to make a permanent change so I can live my life freely, without my weight being something I hide behind.
I have decided to create "Phat to Fit to Fabulous" because I am Phat, I have a desire to be Fit and of course to be Fabulous. I already am pretty Fabulous, but know that I will be even more so when I reach my goal! I feel that I have tried many methods, many times, to permanently lose this weight, but documenting the journey for anyone to see I believe will motivate me to where I need to be. It isn't about only disappointing myself now, but an audience as well.
The word "Phat" seems to be prettier than the other version, the version that has a very negative connotation attached. A word strangers use when they see me, when they are frustrated at me, what I "just know" that they are thinking when walking by or when they see me eating - but in all honestly it is how I view myself and I am tired of it. I am tired of waking up every morning thinking of how my body feels laying in bed. When I get up and walk past the mirror. When I get in the shower, when I get out of the shower. The way my clothes fit. When I am in my car, the drive to work, the walk to my office, sitting at my desk, the walk to my car, sitting in my car, on the drive home. I believe right now I am the heaviest I have ever been. I will wait until Monday to document my weight on here, as I am giving myself a few more days to say goodbye to the unhealthy decisions and habits and of course get the courage to face that number.
The word "Fit" well, is what I want to be. I want to be able to run 5.7 KM without stopping, perhaps 6KM or 7KM per day. One day, I want to be able to run up Mount Pleasant north of Bloor on that huge hill without stopping. Perhaps make that my Saturday run. I don't want to feel that my heart is pounding out of my chest when I climb some stairs. I want to look down the road, six months from now, 12 months from now and feel healthy, happy about my body and satisfied and proud of what I have accomplished. Losing the "Phat" and getting to "Fit" is a long road, but one I am willing to walk, jog and eventually run on and keep going.
The word "Fabulous" is just as is sounds. It is a word I use quite regularly and how I usually feel about myself. Yes, I am a Fabulous woman - a woman of great strength, passion and all around great person. I would do anything for those I care about, anything. I need to care about myself just as much and to live a long and healthy life is something that I yearn for. I am quite capable of it and my goal is to remain Fabulous, and feel incredibly Fabulous after I adopt this healthy lifestyle and shed those pesky 50 pounds that I have been hiding behind for as long as I can remember.
I have lost, I have gained. I have gained more, then I have lost and then I have gained again. I need to stop the cycle. I know that this isn't going to be easy and that I am going to want to give up, daily, weekly, probably even hourly - but I know that I need to do this and I really want the end result, and not the instant gratification of eating what I want to. It is not even a question anymore. This may sound funny, or sad, but I do not want to be one of those people on TLC that eat 35,000 calories a day or need a crane to pull me out of my house....or that guy who sends down a bucket with money to the chicken guy who puts the food in the bucket and pull it up to eat in my room. If I keep the poor eating and non exercise habits, I am afraid that this could be the end result. I am WAY too Fabulous to lift chicken into my room in a bucket.
Thank you for reading, following and I appreciate your support through my journey. Here you will find many different thoughts, feelings, struggles, ideas and opinions that are all mine so feel free to comment, laugh outloud, show support or just listen. Maybe, just maybe you will be able to identify with something I have said and maybe it will make a difference in your own journey.
Take care, and I will blog soon.
PFF
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